muscles

i have maintained my innocence i sing like an angel i deserve love and to be loved even when i can't love myself i love my past versions of myself i love god i love you god i love you thank you i know you've walked every road alongside me i believe in you because i believe in me i believe in love i believe in nature and in the unfolding i believe in my pain and it was real and it is real right now for me tonight i still sting i still ache in my knees when i think about the face of my father i still keep going i love you i love you i have been a shell but the sea foam sang the tide in and i was filled with muscle and vitality and pearls once again and i have remembered my reason for going and getting up and still smiling at strangers every day and my child self is dreaming in her yellow-sheeted bed about just how tall she'll stand at twenty-one i love her i love her i love god that little girl was god she didn't even know no one told her